I just returned from a nearly two week long mission trip to Asia so I have a bit of jet lag as I write but I want to share something that never gets old.
I have a tendency to think and feel that I can never do enough. For instance, on this trip I would say it was one of the most fulfilling and rewarding trips ever and that we say God move in very tangible ways. I’ve seen more progress in the last two years than in the last five. That’s awesome. But here is my weakness–I also see all the things that could be done, should be done are undone and it leads me to feeling like I can never do enough.
I’m not alone in this. I find that many feel like they somehow need to save the world and do it all right now to be in God’s favor. I struggle with the sense that I somehow need to earn it only I never get it quite right or do enough. There is so much more to do. If I’m not aware of what is happening I slide into a feeling of failure even after winning a big game. There is always a new day and a new problem and the cycle starts over again.
I don’t want to fall into this trap and I don’t want that for you either. God has been faithfully reminding me on the trip home and throughout the last two days that my ability to come before Him was purchased on the cross of Calvary. He made a way for me and He longs to draw me into His tender embrace because I am His redeemed child. I’m a son of the most high God. I’m dearly loved. There is nothing I can do to make Him love me more or less. He is pleased because I’ve chosen Him and invited Him to forgive me and lead me. I can rest in that. I can abide in His love and presence. And it is only out of this kind of intimacy and trust that good and lasting fruit is produced.
My desire to work my way into his good graces is my human stuff. It didn’t come from God. My sense that I can never do enough or do it right is a lie from the enemy but I need to not take that bait. I don’t need to prove anything to God or to others to justify my job or calling. These are potentially disastrous motivations and can lead me to feeling tired, overwhelmed, under appreciated and defeated.
I share today because I don’t think I’m alone. Today take some time to retreat and be alone with God. Soak up His love and care. Affirm to Him how much you love Him. Invite Him to reveal Himself to you today and promise Him you will walk through your day confident of His grace. Embrace what the day offers conscious of the truth that He goes before you and that He lives in you and that there is nothing that the two of you can’t face together. You are loved. Live in that love today.